Oedipus Rex?

So I came to a conclusion and asked God to let it be that way according to His will for His best, and that of the world, and for us, and for me. Shortly after that, as if an answer to my prayer, God brought the honey I had envisioned in my mind to me and I saw that it was good and everything I could want. Shortly after he gave me a taste of it and I found it to be ideal and euphoric. Ecstasy. He said to me, "It's good isn't it?" Yes, I replied. "It's ideal isn't it?" Yes. "It's everything you hoped and dreamed for and everything you could have ever wanted, isn't it?" Yes, it is. "Well, you can't have it." And after tasting ecstasy, the One who gave it to me took it away. And so what do I do now. Yes, His will be done. But I am in a state of uncontrollable confusion and depression. Why would He dare show me the ideal and show me my dreams manifested and then even give me a taste of it only to pull it away. He knows it's everything I could ever want. And I want it so bad. Why would He even bring it to me if He knew it would hurt me as it has, and if He knew that it wasn't right for me all along.

I believe the words God Himself said in that He desires the best for those who love and follow Him. I believe I am a servant of God and perhaps one of His more faithful followers, if you allow me the sin of comparing myself to other believers. The conclusion I am forced to make is that God in all His knowledge and sovereign power and control brought it into my life for a purpose to benefit me and the other- whether that be merely for my spiritual growth (and it has greatly taken me to new levels spiritually), as a piece in the puzzle of my forming ministry- for my aid or growth or provision or opening a door- or all of these for the benefit of the other and that growth. Or, against my dark desire to hope for the ideal, the One- given to me according to His will to bless me in all these areas and even more. But i don't dare to hope for the ideal, because though I am a follower of God and believe He will reward me in this life along with the next for the sincerity of my heart, my trust and faith, and my deeds, who am I to determine His will or predict and analyze the Cosmos and say what He will do and what He won't. Because there is always a very good chance that it will not work out like I want it to, because one thing I know about God and have realized in the past is that God does not like to be figured out; He prefers to be mysterious and unpredictable. Because of that good chance of it not going ideally as I would have it, I have no place to hope lest I be crushed. So I just move on, and try not to think about it, I just keep following God's will, trusting Him and having faith in Him, and let God be God and His perfect, just, and holy will be His will and what will come to be in the end for the betterment of those that love Him and He loves.